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Wednesday, January 19, 2011

Conversation with My Heart

This is something that I wrote a few months ago when I met someone who built me up just to crush me into pieces...well, that's how I felt then.  And now that I am whole again and don't feel hurt anymore, I am grateful for that opportunity because I got to know myself better and learned that I am stronger than I thought I was.  I could say that I have already moved on from that experience because I finally have the courage to publish this post....


ME: Heart, how are you doing?

HEART: Surviving...still beating and pumping. Thank goodness my cholesterol level is good or else I won't be doing well after someone broke me.

ME: I'm aware of your current state and I feel your pain. How were you broken?

HEART: I heard the beating of an English heart and it was too loud to ignore. I just had to take a chance.

ME: What were you thinking at that time? You should have held back. Now look at the the two of us...we're a mess.

HEART: Hey, my function is to feel and not to think. You should tell Brain that. I'm sure if she was doing her job, we both have been saved from this mess.

ME: Good point. I should have put Brain to work but maybe you weren't pumping enough blood to her and she didn't get the message. I imagined you could handle it and did not need Brain's help because you and English heart seemed to hit it off.

HEART: Yeah, I thought so too Oh, well...too late now. I'm already broken.

ME: What made you fall for English heart?

HEART: For one, his beating sounded different and I never heard anything like it before. I felt like bursting if I held back so I just let go. I didn't want to have an attack yet, you know.

ME: Hmmm...that's pretty lame. You hardly knew him.

HEART: I know but he smothered me with sweet words and made me feel like I was the most beautiful heart in the world of anatomy.

ME: That's really sweet. But what happened?

HEART: I don't know...he just went silent. I could not hear his beating anymore or may be it's already beating for another heart.

ME: Yeah, probably. How are you holding up?

HEART: Oh, I'm okay. I'm hanging in there but I'm sure I'll be back in normal circulation. My friends Valve, Artery, Arteriole, Capillary, Venule and Vein were not real happy about it because they're not able to function well with me being broken. I promised them I'll pick myself up and do a better job. I'm glad they understood.

ME: That's good to know. You know I am also very affected because of what you're going through. I can't function well myself, if you can't. So what have you learned from it?

HEART: I learned not to pour myself out right away. I have no regrets though. The next time I hear the beating of someone's heart, I'd be more careful.

ME: I'm glad to hear that. And let's not forget to consult Brain because she uses logic and has wisdom. We need her to balance it out.

HEART: Good idea. I'm so glad we're having this conversation.

ME: Yeah, me too. Don't worry, you will find a heart that will fix you.

HEART: I hope so. How are you, by the way?

ME: Better than I thought I would be but I know that once you're fixed, I will be fixed too. We're both in this together.

HEART: Yeah, we are...


"The only heart heartbreakers have is the heart to break hearts."~Dinah~